Am I Mocking Cupid?

Users Who Hyped This Post

• 
  Lollipop333

I originally titled my blog "Cupid's Nemesis" when I was single. What I'm beginning to wonder now is... now that I have a boyfriend, is keeping my blog titled that, sort of mocking cupid? Not that I believe in cupid, but isn't it in a way? Do you guys have any good ideas for a different name for me blog? I have a good idea for a design header, just no clue what to change the name to. If you guys have any ideas, please send me some comments!

Joe and I were supposed to do something this Saturday, but then we found out that he has games pretty much all day, and he was already pretty tired so when I told him I won't be able to, he started getting in a bad mood. He never snapped at me but I kept getting one-worded answers. It kind of hurt my feelings for some reason...a lot. I know I'm being totally unreasonable and I feel terrible about it, but he's never been that way before. Not with me anyway. Usually, if he's in a bad mood I'm able to make it better. But knowing I was the cause of his mood...I never meant to. I started crying, and couldn't stop until fourty-five minutes later. But, I think that that is mainly because I was/still am so tired. He's better now. And hopefully he'll be happier tomorrow. If not, I am detereminded to make him feel better.

Porn and boyfriends

Okay... my boyfriend and I just had a long discussion about how we feel about porn. He used to watch it. And apparently he watched it twice after we got together. The point is...he was honest with me about it. I mean sure, pretty much every guy has watched porn plenty of times. He apologized for watching it, and said that he wouldn't any more. I believe him, and I trust him even more now, than I did before, just because he told me the truth. I didn't even ask him to stop watching it, or to apologize. In fact, I told him I am fine with it (when I am very well not fine with it, but I love him enough to not stand in his way of something he happens to like). But the thing is, my guy is good enough to me, to tell me the truth, even if I might not have liked the truth. It was much better than being lied to. Joe really is a good guy. Sometimes I wonder what I ever did to deserve such a good person. Sometimes I wake up in the morning and think to myself, "is this real? is he really mine? or is he just a dream...an incredible figment of my imagination.."
He is real. And I want to keep him here with me for as long as I can.
 

Long time no blog!

Hey y'all! I'm sorry it's been soooo long since I last posted a blog. My personal computer got a virus somehow when I was researching something for an English paper. Ha, it's just my luck too. Anyways, I have missed blogging so much! My computer still isn't fixed yet so I don't know how often I will be able to blog. Well, I'll give you guys an update on everything that is going on in my life at the moment.

To start things off, I'll begin with Joe :-)
Things obviously went amazingly well on our first date at the ice skating rink, I had such a good time with him. We really hit it off. So we started going out more and more, until he asked me to be his girlfriend, and I agreed without thinking twice about it! We've grown so close over the past month of being together. This coming Monday is Valentine's Day :-) since he's homeschooled, we won't be able to see eachother Monday, so we decided to celebrate together this Sunday. It's out first Valentine's Day where we actually have someone to celebrate with. Haha it's going to be sooo nice not feeling lonely on V-day this year. I remember always hating that, how everyone always seemed to have a boyfriend or girlfriend to celebrate with and I was the oddball. But omg! Ok so today I went to the Hallmark store in hopes of finding something nice and sweet to get Joe...I came out with a card and a big, white fluffy teddy bear. Oh well, hopefully he'll be nice and like it just because I gave it to him. So, this Sunday, I'm going over his house for awhile and we're going to watch his favorite movie together since I've never seen it, and I know he'd like that. It's called "Never Back Down", have any of you guys heard of it? He told me it's about wrestleing. Anyways, after we watch the movie, I'm going to church with him and his family and then we're going to get a nice, romantic dinner alone together. So thats the plan! Haha, I have no idea if he got me anything for V-day but it doesn't matter if he didn't, I just got him something to show I care. That's generally the idea, I guess. I've come to the realization that I love him...like a lot. He told me that he loves me when we went to t movies on our second date. It was the sweetest thing ever. OMG this guy is amazing. Ok, I gotta go, but I'll try to blog again as soon as I get a chance. Hopefully tomorrow. Nighty night!

There's Nothing Like a First Kiss

Ok to start things off, yesterday was by far the best day of my life. Joe and I went out, we went ice skating. I ran into a couple of my students and said hi to them. He and I skated around that rink for two hours straight and just talked the whole time. It felt like 10 minutes went by and then we had to get off. We skated around the rink and just talked about everything under the sun. Our favorite's, parents, when the last time he played hockey, his basketball and baseball team, my cheerleading, my students, everything. He mentioned that he wanted to kiss me but that he was too nervous to. So we skated around a couple of times and he finally did. It was quick, and just a peck on my lips lol but it was really sweet, so about a half hour later I told him it was my turn to kiss him so I pulled him in and wrapped my arms around his neck and he leaned down (because I could never reach his lips if he didn't lean for me) and I started to kiss him, he started to pull back after the first time our lips touched, thinking that I was done like he was the first time. The first time he only touched my lips once, he later told me it was because he was so nervous. But I didn't do that to him, I had a little more confidence, which he later said he loved because he wanted to kiss me more, he just didnt have the confidence to do it. So anyways, as he was pulling away, thinkning I was done, I pulled him back and gave him a long, slow kiss before letting go and taking his hand back in mine. We skated awhile longer, until it was time for us to go. My parents came to pick me up and he said goodbye to them, I walked him back to his car and he asked me for a goodbye kiss, which we both later agreed was the best kiss of all. By then, he had gotten used to kissing me. He wrapped his arms around my waist and I wrapped mine around his neck. He leaned down and pulled me as close as I possibly could to him and he kissed me long and soft, we were both breathing heavily so I took a break to kiss his neck a little and went back to kissing his lips slowly, then he kissed my neck...and then we both had to go. We hated saying goodbye, but we had to. So anyways, that was the most perfect first date I've ever had with a guy. Joe is absolutely amazing, and I wouldn't ever trade him for anything in the world. Well, I have to say, I've become quite the contradiction to my blog title, "Cupid's Nemesis". I kind of think that I am no longer cupid's nemesis....I mean, I could be again one day. But it doesn't seem fitting for me anymore thanks to Joe. Maybe I'll change the name of my blog...does anyone have any ideas for a title? If you do, leave me comments! I LOVE to read all of your comments!

His Love is a Drug and I'm an Addict

I know I just blogged like 6 hours ago...but I need to write some more, just to get all my feelings out. And you know what? Odds are I'm probably going to write another blog in a little bit again. Haha.

Okay, sooo...Joe just talked to me and explained that he has a game on Saturday. So we had to reschedule. I'm just hopeing and praying that I'll be able to get a ride for Sunday. I really like Joe. He's outstanding, honestly I have never been so happy with someone in my entire life. I think I could really love him one day. I want so badly to be with him all the time, and we haven't even gone out yet. His love is drug and I'm addicted. I can't get enough of him, and that's what scares me. If things don't work out between us, I'm terrified of the pain I'll have to withstand if we have a fight or if he leaves me.

What's Running Through His Mind

Haha okay, next time, think before you have sex! If you ever wonder what's going on in his mind during sex, this video will pretty much sum it up for you ;-P lol It's hilarious. But if I ever have sex with my boyfriend (YES!!! JOE AND I GOT TOGETHER!!), this had better not be running through his mind.

Life is like a Basketball Game

Life is like a basketball game. Every point you get counts as a little bit of fulfillment that you have in your life. We're all in this game. People have divided up into two teams, when we could actually all be on the same team; we could work to help eachother out, rather than be against one another. I guess sometimes...we just can't help it. We feel the need to go against one another. Is it rebellion? Is it indifference? Could it be because we're programmed to have problems in our lives and do our best to face them the right way, in our own way? I believe that these questions are left for us to answer, no one but yourself can answer them correctly when speaking about your own life.

Okay, so in a basketball game there are Cheerleaders. Don't get me wrong, I am a Cheerleader myself, so if you are one or if you are friends with one, I'm not talking about actual Cheerleaders. In my theoretic basketball game of life, Cheerleaders stand for the sluts, whores, bitches, and the (evil) popular crowds. Lets face it, you know that when I just described that, several people probably came to mind. We all know those kinds of people. Haha well, think of it this way, Cheerleaders aren't part of the game, yes they contribute but they're not actually playing the game. As long as they stay a cheerleader, they won't be part of the game. When they graduate, they become part of this huge game called life. But not much has prepared them for reality. They've never been part of a team, they've never depended on other people. They don't know what to do. They may have been so high and mighty in high school, but what will they do now that they're in college or looking for a job or taking care of their baby that they had when they were 16?

Having others to depend on is important. Without a good support system, you're going to have a really rough time finding sucess in anything. Goodluck to those who aren't close to their families and who argue with their friends a lot. I wish you all the best.