There's Nothing Like a First Kiss

Ok to start things off, yesterday was by far the best day of my life. Joe and I went out, we went ice skating. I ran into a couple of my students and said hi to them. He and I skated around that rink for two hours straight and just talked the whole time. It felt like 10 minutes went by and then we had to get off. We skated around the rink and just talked about everything under the sun. Our favorite's, parents, when the last time he played hockey, his basketball and baseball team, my cheerleading, my students, everything. He mentioned that he wanted to kiss me but that he was too nervous to. So we skated around a couple of times and he finally did. It was quick, and just a peck on my lips lol but it was really sweet, so about a half hour later I told him it was my turn to kiss him so I pulled him in and wrapped my arms around his neck and he leaned down (because I could never reach his lips if he didn't lean for me) and I started to kiss him, he started to pull back after the first time our lips touched, thinking that I was done like he was the first time. The first time he only touched my lips once, he later told me it was because he was so nervous. But I didn't do that to him, I had a little more confidence, which he later said he loved because he wanted to kiss me more, he just didnt have the confidence to do it. So anyways, as he was pulling away, thinkning I was done, I pulled him back and gave him a long, slow kiss before letting go and taking his hand back in mine. We skated awhile longer, until it was time for us to go. My parents came to pick me up and he said goodbye to them, I walked him back to his car and he asked me for a goodbye kiss, which we both later agreed was the best kiss of all. By then, he had gotten used to kissing me. He wrapped his arms around my waist and I wrapped mine around his neck. He leaned down and pulled me as close as I possibly could to him and he kissed me long and soft, we were both breathing heavily so I took a break to kiss his neck a little and went back to kissing his lips slowly, then he kissed my neck...and then we both had to go. We hated saying goodbye, but we had to. So anyways, that was the most perfect first date I've ever had with a guy. Joe is absolutely amazing, and I wouldn't ever trade him for anything in the world. Well, I have to say, I've become quite the contradiction to my blog title, "Cupid's Nemesis". I kind of think that I am no longer cupid's nemesis....I mean, I could be again one day. But it doesn't seem fitting for me anymore thanks to Joe. Maybe I'll change the name of my blog...does anyone have any ideas for a title? If you do, leave me comments! I LOVE to read all of your comments!

His Love is a Drug and I'm an Addict

I know I just blogged like 6 hours ago...but I need to write some more, just to get all my feelings out. And you know what? Odds are I'm probably going to write another blog in a little bit again. Haha.

Okay, sooo...Joe just talked to me and explained that he has a game on Saturday. So we had to reschedule. I'm just hopeing and praying that I'll be able to get a ride for Sunday. I really like Joe. He's outstanding, honestly I have never been so happy with someone in my entire life. I think I could really love him one day. I want so badly to be with him all the time, and we haven't even gone out yet. His love is drug and I'm addicted. I can't get enough of him, and that's what scares me. If things don't work out between us, I'm terrified of the pain I'll have to withstand if we have a fight or if he leaves me.

What's Running Through His Mind

Haha okay, next time, think before you have sex! If you ever wonder what's going on in his mind during sex, this video will pretty much sum it up for you ;-P lol It's hilarious. But if I ever have sex with my boyfriend (YES!!! JOE AND I GOT TOGETHER!!), this had better not be running through his mind.

Life is like a Basketball Game

Life is like a basketball game. Every point you get counts as a little bit of fulfillment that you have in your life. We're all in this game. People have divided up into two teams, when we could actually all be on the same team; we could work to help eachother out, rather than be against one another. I guess sometimes...we just can't help it. We feel the need to go against one another. Is it rebellion? Is it indifference? Could it be because we're programmed to have problems in our lives and do our best to face them the right way, in our own way? I believe that these questions are left for us to answer, no one but yourself can answer them correctly when speaking about your own life.

Okay, so in a basketball game there are Cheerleaders. Don't get me wrong, I am a Cheerleader myself, so if you are one or if you are friends with one, I'm not talking about actual Cheerleaders. In my theoretic basketball game of life, Cheerleaders stand for the sluts, whores, bitches, and the (evil) popular crowds. Lets face it, you know that when I just described that, several people probably came to mind. We all know those kinds of people. Haha well, think of it this way, Cheerleaders aren't part of the game, yes they contribute but they're not actually playing the game. As long as they stay a cheerleader, they won't be part of the game. When they graduate, they become part of this huge game called life. But not much has prepared them for reality. They've never been part of a team, they've never depended on other people. They don't know what to do. They may have been so high and mighty in high school, but what will they do now that they're in college or looking for a job or taking care of their baby that they had when they were 16?

Having others to depend on is important. Without a good support system, you're going to have a really rough time finding sucess in anything. Goodluck to those who aren't close to their families and who argue with their friends a lot. I wish you all the best.

Paris and the Catacombs

Right now I am reading a book called "Revolution" by Jennifer Donnelly. It's about this girl who's brother died. She blames herself for his death, when it isn't even her fault. She's an alcoholic, she does drugs and she's suicidal. Well her father left her mom, who's insane. Her mom doesn't talk, or atleast does all she can to say the least words possible. All her mom does all day is paint potraites of Truman, her brother. When her father comes home to check on her and her mom, he sees the condition the two of them are in and takes the girl with him to Paris, leaving her mother at a mental facility for a few months. The girl is an incredible musician, but her father doesn't take her ambitions seriously. While she's in Paris, she has to write her Senior Thesis in order to graduate. Well, while she's in Paris, she finds this 200 year old guitar in it's original case. Later, she finds out that the case has a false bottom and within it is a diary of a girl who experienced the fall of Paris. It's an incredible book! I can't wait to finnish it! Well, while the girl is in Paris, she goes undergroud to visit the catacombes. So I thought to maybe show you a pic of how the catacombs look. To my surprise, I learned that there are over 6 million bodies representing 30 generations of Parisians! See, over 200 years ago, in Paris, so many people were dieing of the plague, and of being neglected by their king. There were so many dead bodies that there wasn't enough space for them in graveyards, and the decomposing bodies were making the survivors ill. So, the king sent his people to collect the bodies as well as dig up bodies from all the cemetaries, and put them in the catacombs. Today, the catacombs are part of a modern day tourist trap. If you have any interest in any of this, feel free to write comments. I love love love comments, but I hardly ever get any, just hypes (not that I don't appreciate those!). Anyways, thanks for reading! I'll be writing again tomorrow.

My letter to Dove Chocolate

Dear Dove,
I want to thank you for all that you have done for me. You have always been there for me through thick and thin. When my 16'th birthday came along last month, you were there for me to indulge in. Although you gave me zits that lasted for over two weeks, I'm able to overlook that. When my first boyfriend left me you were there for me to splurge and give into my weakness of comfort food. As tears ran down my face, I couldn't help but think to myself, "Damn, this is good chocolate!" And it made me feel so much better until I gained a few break up pounds which I had to later work off. Dove, you have always been here for me. I hope that you'll still be around when I graduate, when I'm pregnant and craving you, when my children are driving me so freakin insane that you're all I have to turn to. I hope to see in you my dreams, and when I die and go to heaven, I believe that you'll be waiting there for me. Thank you, Dove...I love you.

Love,
Hailey <3

My Dream Wedding!!

Okay, I've done it :-) lol I have created my dream wedding and I'm about to share it all with you. So here it goes... this is my wedding engagement and wedding rings. (The ring I want is the one on the bottom in the first picture...yes the one with the huge sparkly rock lol)



The next picture is of my wedding dress :-) It's gorgeous!! I just hope I'll be able to find it, or one like it by the time I'm ready to get married.

This is the way I want to have my hair done (since I'm a blonde, I think it will look good). It's sort of a traditional curly bun but with larger, beautiful ringlets. Since my dress will be lacy...I kind of want to add some little rhinestones to put in the bun so it stands out a little more.

 

 

These will be my bouquet that I will carry when I walk down the aisle! They're gorgeous, when I found these, I just thought to myself (same as the dress) these are "the ones". I also love the little flower thingys that just draws the eye. Those are a must have!!

 

 

Haha okay, first off, I have a miniature dashchund. I got her when I was twelve, and I've loved her ever since. Hopefull she'll be alive by the time I get married. If she is, I want her to be my ring bearer, even if she isn't a boy. If she isn't alive still, I will have another dashchund as a pet, and it will be the ring bearer. Maybe people will think it's weird, maybe it's untraditional, but you know what? Hehe, that's the beauty of it! It will be special to me because it's my wedding, and having my dog be the ring bearer means a lot, because my dog is like family to me, and it means so much.

 

 

The Brides Maides' Dresses!! Okay, I've decided that the Brides Maides will wear the longer dresses, and the Maides of Honor will wear the shorter ones. (I have two best friends, so I'm going to end up having two maides of honor). I think the black color, and the cut is gorgeous and very flattering. They could always use their dress for another formal function, especially since it isn't a hideously bright bubblegum color or something along those lines.

 

 

These flowers will be what my Bride's Maids will carry when they walk down the aisle before I come out. I think they're really pretty, and since their dresses will be dark, this bouquet will brighten their outfit a little more.

 

 

The Reception! Doesn't this look beautiful?!!! I love the bamboo chaires and small, bubble, twinkly lights above. The reception will take place outside in a huge tent. There will be incredible floral embellishments like so in the picure. And guests will obviously have assigned seating. I'll have an amazing tiramisu wedding cake that will look just like this as well! My mom is actually training to be a pastry chef, so she might be able to make it for my wedding. That would mean a lot to her, and also save my parents a lot of money on paying someone else for the cake.

 

 

 

The Honeymoon!! When my parents where married, my mom's parents sent her and my on a honeymoon in Orlando, Florida to The Grand Floridian in Disney World. I wish to have my honeymoon there as well. We'll stay at the honeymoon suite. There are two outdoor pools, as well as a hottub. There is a monerail that runs beside the hotel that will take you straight to the Magic Kingdom. The hotel is beachfront so you can rent boats, tan, etc.
So now, I have my wedding planned out, lol now the issue is finding the right groom. Will it be Joseph? Maybe it won't work out with him, will it be someone else? Someone right in front of me, or someone I haven't even met yet? I guess time will tell :-) but I have faith that I will eventually find the right person for me. I'll never settle, as my parents always taught me. And I hope for all of you, that you'll never settle either. Trust me, you'll regret it. To all the dreamers out there, I pray that you'll get to have your fairy tale wedding with the person you love most!