Thursday, March 31, 2011
For the First Time
Heyyy everyone! It's been awhile since I've been able to blog lately. I've been...preoccupied. I guess boyfriends will do that to you! Haha, anyways, I'd love to hear how all of you are doing. Give me some feedback and leave me some comments! Anywho, this song reminds me of Joe so much, I emailed him today and told him to listen to it, I said that if and when we ever get into a bad fight, that this is how we'd be. I told him that if I'm wrong, I will admit that I was wrong, and no matter what I'll make up with him. I'm just not sure if he were to ever cheat... idk if I could actually forgive that or even trust him again after he did something like that. It would be too much to handle, I'd still love him but I'd be heartbroken. I'm glad that we've promised each other that we'll never do that to each other. Ok, so here's the music video :) hope you like it as much as I did! It made me cry.
Skii Date
I just got back home from skiing with Joe about an hour and a half ago. It was sooo much fun! Today was my first day EVER on a pair of skiis and he taught me how :-)
It was so special and nice, he watched out for me to make sure I wouldn't get hurt. I only fell once, and he was right by my side to make sure I was ok. We ran into a friend of our's from school and got talking to him a little. Apparently he was at the skii resort for snowboarding.
Joe has been skiing for three years now. He's really good! He definitely knows what he's doing, I was very impressed by his mad skills. Apparently, I did really good, according to him! Since I ice skate, balancing on the skiis wasn't that hard. Maneuvering back and forth and stopping wasn't that hard either once I got the hang of it and remembered how to do all of the different positions. He started me off on the bunny slope which the little kids didn't even go on, they completely skipped that one and just went to the next highest slope. After I got used to that one, we went on the second to lowest slope, and then the third.
After awhile, we both got extremely cold and decided to go inside and warm up. He brought food and drinks for us since the food sold at the skii resort is extremely out of both of our price ranges. We stayed in for an hour and a half before my dad had to pick me up. The whole time we just laughed and kissed and talked and held each other close to stay warm. I had an incredible time with him :-) I always do. I was sad to see it end, the time always flys by so quickly when I'm with him. I miss him so much when we're apart. This weekend, he's supposed to come over on Saturday and just chill with me and my family like we did a few weeks ago. The sad thing is, I am going to Gatlinburg Tennessee from Sat-Thurs for spring break. So this weekend will be the last time I get to see him before I leave for TN. Well, besides seeing him at school before he has baseball practice this Monday. That, I think, will be the last official day I'll see him before I leave. It will be torture being apart this long. We haven't missed a weekend date together since we started dating, besides when he went to Gatlinburg with his church a few weeks ago. But, he still came over the day after he got home (a Monday, President's Day). Maybe I'll bring him back something special just for him from TN. I think he'd like that a lot.
Tomorrow I'm leaving school early to go get my hair done. I need my highlights redone. I think that I am going to get a little bit of red mixed in with my natural, brunette color, and blonde. That way my hair will look a little choppy. I may even get it layered. Although, that makes it hard to pull my hair up for when I go skating. I'm not sure, we'll have to see how things go tomorrow. I love talking about Joe. I wish I could just tell the whole world how much I love and care about him. I can't wait to talk to my hairstylist, Jesse and tell her about him. She's been asking me for years if I have a boyfriend, and it isn't until now that I finally do!
I've been having computer problems lately, so I hope I'll be able to blog again tomorrow! No guaruntees! Sorry! I'll try my best! Have a good rest of the night you guys! Thanks for reading =D
It was so special and nice, he watched out for me to make sure I wouldn't get hurt. I only fell once, and he was right by my side to make sure I was ok. We ran into a friend of our's from school and got talking to him a little. Apparently he was at the skii resort for snowboarding.
Joe has been skiing for three years now. He's really good! He definitely knows what he's doing, I was very impressed by his mad skills. Apparently, I did really good, according to him! Since I ice skate, balancing on the skiis wasn't that hard. Maneuvering back and forth and stopping wasn't that hard either once I got the hang of it and remembered how to do all of the different positions. He started me off on the bunny slope which the little kids didn't even go on, they completely skipped that one and just went to the next highest slope. After I got used to that one, we went on the second to lowest slope, and then the third.
After awhile, we both got extremely cold and decided to go inside and warm up. He brought food and drinks for us since the food sold at the skii resort is extremely out of both of our price ranges. We stayed in for an hour and a half before my dad had to pick me up. The whole time we just laughed and kissed and talked and held each other close to stay warm. I had an incredible time with him :-) I always do. I was sad to see it end, the time always flys by so quickly when I'm with him. I miss him so much when we're apart. This weekend, he's supposed to come over on Saturday and just chill with me and my family like we did a few weeks ago. The sad thing is, I am going to Gatlinburg Tennessee from Sat-Thurs for spring break. So this weekend will be the last time I get to see him before I leave for TN. Well, besides seeing him at school before he has baseball practice this Monday. That, I think, will be the last official day I'll see him before I leave. It will be torture being apart this long. We haven't missed a weekend date together since we started dating, besides when he went to Gatlinburg with his church a few weeks ago. But, he still came over the day after he got home (a Monday, President's Day). Maybe I'll bring him back something special just for him from TN. I think he'd like that a lot.
Tomorrow I'm leaving school early to go get my hair done. I need my highlights redone. I think that I am going to get a little bit of red mixed in with my natural, brunette color, and blonde. That way my hair will look a little choppy. I may even get it layered. Although, that makes it hard to pull my hair up for when I go skating. I'm not sure, we'll have to see how things go tomorrow. I love talking about Joe. I wish I could just tell the whole world how much I love and care about him. I can't wait to talk to my hairstylist, Jesse and tell her about him. She's been asking me for years if I have a boyfriend, and it isn't until now that I finally do!
I've been having computer problems lately, so I hope I'll be able to blog again tomorrow! No guaruntees! Sorry! I'll try my best! Have a good rest of the night you guys! Thanks for reading =D
Am I Mocking Cupid?
I originally titled my blog "Cupid's Nemesis" when I was single. What I'm beginning to wonder now is... now that I have a boyfriend, is keeping my blog titled that, sort of mocking cupid? Not that I believe in cupid, but isn't it in a way? Do you guys have any good ideas for a different name for me blog? I have a good idea for a design header, just no clue what to change the name to. If you guys have any ideas, please send me some comments!
Joe and I were supposed to do something this Saturday, but then we found out that he has games pretty much all day, and he was already pretty tired so when I told him I won't be able to, he started getting in a bad mood. He never snapped at me but I kept getting one-worded answers. It kind of hurt my feelings for some reason...a lot. I know I'm being totally unreasonable and I feel terrible about it, but he's never been that way before. Not with me anyway. Usually, if he's in a bad mood I'm able to make it better. But knowing I was the cause of his mood...I never meant to. I started crying, and couldn't stop until fourty-five minutes later. But, I think that that is mainly because I was/still am so tired. He's better now. And hopefully he'll be happier tomorrow. If not, I am detereminded to make him feel better.
Joe and I were supposed to do something this Saturday, but then we found out that he has games pretty much all day, and he was already pretty tired so when I told him I won't be able to, he started getting in a bad mood. He never snapped at me but I kept getting one-worded answers. It kind of hurt my feelings for some reason...a lot. I know I'm being totally unreasonable and I feel terrible about it, but he's never been that way before. Not with me anyway. Usually, if he's in a bad mood I'm able to make it better. But knowing I was the cause of his mood...I never meant to. I started crying, and couldn't stop until fourty-five minutes later. But, I think that that is mainly because I was/still am so tired. He's better now. And hopefully he'll be happier tomorrow. If not, I am detereminded to make him feel better.
Porn and boyfriends
Okay... my boyfriend and I just had a long discussion about how we feel about porn. He used to watch it. And apparently he watched it twice after we got together. The point is...he was honest with me about it. I mean sure, pretty much every guy has watched porn plenty of times. He apologized for watching it, and said that he wouldn't any more. I believe him, and I trust him even more now, than I did before, just because he told me the truth. I didn't even ask him to stop watching it, or to apologize. In fact, I told him I am fine with it (when I am very well not fine with it, but I love him enough to not stand in his way of something he happens to like). But the thing is, my guy is good enough to me, to tell me the truth, even if I might not have liked the truth. It was much better than being lied to. Joe really is a good guy. Sometimes I wonder what I ever did to deserve such a good person. Sometimes I wake up in the morning and think to myself, "is this real? is he really mine? or is he just a dream...an incredible figment of my imagination.."
He is real. And I want to keep him here with me for as long as I can.
He is real. And I want to keep him here with me for as long as I can.
Long time no blog!
Hey y'all! I'm sorry it's been soooo long since I last posted a blog. My personal computer got a virus somehow when I was researching something for an English paper. Ha, it's just my luck too. Anyways, I have missed blogging so much! My computer still isn't fixed yet so I don't know how often I will be able to blog. Well, I'll give you guys an update on everything that is going on in my life at the moment.
To start things off, I'll begin with Joe :-)
Things obviously went amazingly well on our first date at the ice skating rink, I had such a good time with him. We really hit it off. So we started going out more and more, until he asked me to be his girlfriend, and I agreed without thinking twice about it! We've grown so close over the past month of being together. This coming Monday is Valentine's Day :-) since he's homeschooled, we won't be able to see eachother Monday, so we decided to celebrate together this Sunday. It's out first Valentine's Day where we actually have someone to celebrate with. Haha it's going to be sooo nice not feeling lonely on V-day this year. I remember always hating that, how everyone always seemed to have a boyfriend or girlfriend to celebrate with and I was the oddball. But omg! Ok so today I went to the Hallmark store in hopes of finding something nice and sweet to get Joe...I came out with a card and a big, white fluffy teddy bear. Oh well, hopefully he'll be nice and like it just because I gave it to him. So, this Sunday, I'm going over his house for awhile and we're going to watch his favorite movie together since I've never seen it, and I know he'd like that. It's called "Never Back Down", have any of you guys heard of it? He told me it's about wrestleing. Anyways, after we watch the movie, I'm going to church with him and his family and then we're going to get a nice, romantic dinner alone together. So thats the plan! Haha, I have no idea if he got me anything for V-day but it doesn't matter if he didn't, I just got him something to show I care. That's generally the idea, I guess. I've come to the realization that I love him...like a lot. He told me that he loves me when we went to t movies on our second date. It was the sweetest thing ever. OMG this guy is amazing. Ok, I gotta go, but I'll try to blog again as soon as I get a chance. Hopefully tomorrow. Nighty night!
To start things off, I'll begin with Joe :-)
Things obviously went amazingly well on our first date at the ice skating rink, I had such a good time with him. We really hit it off. So we started going out more and more, until he asked me to be his girlfriend, and I agreed without thinking twice about it! We've grown so close over the past month of being together. This coming Monday is Valentine's Day :-) since he's homeschooled, we won't be able to see eachother Monday, so we decided to celebrate together this Sunday. It's out first Valentine's Day where we actually have someone to celebrate with. Haha it's going to be sooo nice not feeling lonely on V-day this year. I remember always hating that, how everyone always seemed to have a boyfriend or girlfriend to celebrate with and I was the oddball. But omg! Ok so today I went to the Hallmark store in hopes of finding something nice and sweet to get Joe...I came out with a card and a big, white fluffy teddy bear. Oh well, hopefully he'll be nice and like it just because I gave it to him. So, this Sunday, I'm going over his house for awhile and we're going to watch his favorite movie together since I've never seen it, and I know he'd like that. It's called "Never Back Down", have any of you guys heard of it? He told me it's about wrestleing. Anyways, after we watch the movie, I'm going to church with him and his family and then we're going to get a nice, romantic dinner alone together. So thats the plan! Haha, I have no idea if he got me anything for V-day but it doesn't matter if he didn't, I just got him something to show I care. That's generally the idea, I guess. I've come to the realization that I love him...like a lot. He told me that he loves me when we went to t movies on our second date. It was the sweetest thing ever. OMG this guy is amazing. Ok, I gotta go, but I'll try to blog again as soon as I get a chance. Hopefully tomorrow. Nighty night!
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
There's Nothing Like a First Kiss
Ok to start things off, yesterday was by far the best day of my life. Joe and I went out, we went ice skating. I ran into a couple of my students and said hi to them. He and I skated around that rink for two hours straight and just talked the whole time. It felt like 10 minutes went by and then we had to get off. We skated around the rink and just talked about everything under the sun. Our favorite's, parents, when the last time he played hockey, his basketball and baseball team, my cheerleading, my students, everything. He mentioned that he wanted to kiss me but that he was too nervous to. So we skated around a couple of times and he finally did. It was quick, and just a peck on my lips lol but it was really sweet, so about a half hour later I told him it was my turn to kiss him so I pulled him in and wrapped my arms around his neck and he leaned down (because I could never reach his lips if he didn't lean for me) and I started to kiss him, he started to pull back after the first time our lips touched, thinking that I was done like he was the first time. The first time he only touched my lips once, he later told me it was because he was so nervous. But I didn't do that to him, I had a little more confidence, which he later said he loved because he wanted to kiss me more, he just didnt have the confidence to do it. So anyways, as he was pulling away, thinkning I was done, I pulled him back and gave him a long, slow kiss before letting go and taking his hand back in mine. We skated awhile longer, until it was time for us to go. My parents came to pick me up and he said goodbye to them, I walked him back to his car and he asked me for a goodbye kiss, which we both later agreed was the best kiss of all. By then, he had gotten used to kissing me. He wrapped his arms around my waist and I wrapped mine around his neck. He leaned down and pulled me as close as I possibly could to him and he kissed me long and soft, we were both breathing heavily so I took a break to kiss his neck a little and went back to kissing his lips slowly, then he kissed my neck...and then we both had to go. We hated saying goodbye, but we had to. So anyways, that was the most perfect first date I've ever had with a guy. Joe is absolutely amazing, and I wouldn't ever trade him for anything in the world. Well, I have to say, I've become quite the contradiction to my blog title, "Cupid's Nemesis". I kind of think that I am no longer cupid's nemesis....I mean, I could be again one day. But it doesn't seem fitting for me anymore thanks to Joe. Maybe I'll change the name of my blog...does anyone have any ideas for a title? If you do, leave me comments! I LOVE to read all of your comments!
Monday, January 17, 2011
His Love is a Drug and I'm an Addict
I know I just blogged like 6 hours ago...but I need to write some more, just to get all my feelings out. And you know what? Odds are I'm probably going to write another blog in a little bit again. Haha.
Okay, sooo...Joe just talked to me and explained that he has a game on Saturday. So we had to reschedule. I'm just hopeing and praying that I'll be able to get a ride for Sunday. I really like Joe. He's outstanding, honestly I have never been so happy with someone in my entire life. I think I could really love him one day. I want so badly to be with him all the time, and we haven't even gone out yet. His love is drug and I'm addicted. I can't get enough of him, and that's what scares me. If things don't work out between us, I'm terrified of the pain I'll have to withstand if we have a fight or if he leaves me.
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